I finally made up my mind.

It's about time I let go of some of my hobbies. I don't know. I guess I just realized I'm just clinging into the past image of me and not because I still enjoy it? Like for example, drawing. I used to draw a lot but I can't even hold a pencil now. How can I say that I still like to draw?

Also, I've decided to stop putting up covers. It's just not fun anymore. I'm sick of practicing songs just to please other people's ears. It's just making me feel insecure every time I post something in public and I don't get comments. Like, even if I know that I'm just posting for fun, there's still something at the back of my mind that makes me feel that way. And I'm just not made for this. It's giving me too much stress and I don't like it.

I don't see myself improving in those things anyway. Sure, I can do it but it's hard to feel rewarded when you're average. I'll just stick to the things where I can feel satisfied like reading and writing. Heh.