I'm just honestly not feeling okay these days. I try to look cool outside but I've been really mentally-unstable lately. I just want to look for a higher-paying job but thanks to my socially awkward ass, I already missed 2 chances. I can't believe I'm this old and yet I still can't fucking do a decent job interview. I feel so stupid. I want to get over this already. This has been my problem ever since. Ugh. I want to leave my company now! I want to earn bigger. Why are written interviews not a thing? It's so unfair. I mean, okay, it's not their problem if I suck at speaking but can't they be a little bit considerate? Not everyone is good at fucking public speaking. Ack. It's so hard to be an introvert and socially awkward and mentally-ill because everything is so extrovert-friendly! Of course, I'm going to try again. I have no choice, duh. Maybe I'll try to practice by writing down answers? I'm not going to memorize it though. Just to give myself an idea on how I should answer some interview questions. Better than doing nothing, right? Please, I just want to be financially stable enough to live on my own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS. Happy PI day!