I have never been a woman, not that I know what it is to be a woman. I have been around women my whole life, bt still I was never one of them. I cold not relate to their worries, their feelings, and behaviours. I could only observe, without understanding why they were this way. I'd observe, I'd listen, try to be a part of it. They knew I wasn't a part of it, they didn't reject me fully though, just a little bit. I don't mind being called a woman, but what people assume about me when they lay their eyes on me, is far from who I am. My desires, my believes, my thoughts do not stem from experiencing life as a woman, they are only mine. My point of view is not of a woman, barely of one that was percieved as such.
I'm not a man either.
I'm just soum. And gender restricts me instead of defining me.