I really, really don't like you.
Your smile, your eyes, is all i see when I close my eyes. My eyes are yet open and I still see them. Your image seems to be printed in my skull, and I have no clue how to erase it. I do want to erase it. I want to forget those big brown eyes, and those lips, that pierced nose, that angular face, your chin, your little white bangs, your ears and the earings dangling from them. Could you just stop smiling ? As that smile disappears from my mind, I hate you more, I don't know you anymore. I only know your smile. I just want to forget all of you, just like I've forgotten so many people. I want to completely erase you. Then when we meet again, your eyes will be new and I might like them again, I might smile back at you, and I might feel everything that I forbid myself to feel. But that won't happen. I've forgotten about you for a little while actually, but you always come back in my darkest hours, and with it hope. Hope that I'm so good at shrieding, by myself.
Only if I closed my eyes, I could see something else, someone else. But no, it is still you, and I hate you, as I hate seeing you.