Talk to Fa

i went to joshua tree on a whim
i woke up hearing a voice in my head “go to joshua tree”
and i said to myself out loud “i am going to joshua tree today”

this is how most of my trips happen

i was a bit daunted by the drive getting there
i doubted if i was really going to enjoy it even if i knew i was going to

i set the destination to my favorite spot in the park
it’d been 4 months since i last went there back in june

i got to the spot
went inside the rocks
immediately, felt at home
at peace
at ease
i was in my element
“i am happy”
made me smile

i stayed there as long as my heart and soul needed me to
when i was satisfied, i came out and explored the surroundings
i then drove to the nearby trail and found a rock to sit on to enjoy the sunset
i lay on the rock i carefully chose
i sat
i closed my eyes and opened my heart and my palms
i saw a green heart in the direction of the setting sun
i absorbed the energy from the rocks through all the touching surfaces on my body
this is why i came here
and this is why i will be back
i felt empowered
energized
recharged

“i am home”

after the sunset, i drove west toward the remaining sunlight
cruising slowly through the joshua trees
it felt like they were sending me off on a good vibe
sky turning from indigo to creamy orange
it’s beautiful
it always makes me tear up, the colors
by the time i reached the exit, the sky was dark
it was nighttime

the drive home felt quick
i should do this more often.