thaison

I couldn't talk about my problem before to anyone because people who never went through intense anger would tell me to brush it off and thought it would be easy like how they stopped being upset over their mom didn't buy their favorite snacks.

Then the denial type who learned pseudo wisdom from some monks would tell me to forgive and forget. Then my childhood friend went through a similar thing and chose to react with violence and I ditched her too because well that's just not the direction my life would ever go to.

I could see why some people would go to great lengths to deny their hate and anger so they could present themselves as a perfect victim and to be convincing to the rest of the world. But they were damaging themselves, and most of the time, damaging others in the process as well.

I did the best I could and frankly it's the rest of them that were immature. You are supposed to move from paranoid-schizoid position to the depressive one. You are supposed to have at least one bad thing to talk about your parents too!