I never called people masculine or feminine because I don't need to know how someone performs their gender to hate them. Being rude or being stupid are not gender-specific. I also felt like I didn't understand those two words.
But lately, I found a new use for them. So like, when I like someone, then and only then the gender will matter, right? Because I only like boy, and not the other gender. I would like to express that the attributes I like only exist in a boy. The boy. Not any boy. It couldn't be personality traits. Because no matter how much I like their personality, those are not gender-specific traits.
But like, I find their facial hair or their height masculine to me. I don't have facial hair myself, nor do I want it, nor do I like that in somebody else. I also don't want other people to steal my definition of what I find masculine. Or make it a universal trait and apply to every loser. This is my own way of seeing how biological difference matters. And it only applied to one person. Because again, hating doesn't require gender. Only being sexually attracted to someone does. So I would use the word 'masculine” similar to how I use the word “attractive” but with the emphasis on physical attributes that I don’t have exclusively.
Maybe there are better words for it. Ones that don't make me want to throw up when everyone else uses it because I know they imply something I hate. But for now, I can't come up with other words.