thaison

Now I think I track down where my narcissism come from.

So someone thinks I should feel ashamed about something I am not aware of, or aware of but don't agree, typically some silly social norms. And I don't feel shame about that particular behavior. But since they HINT that it's not acceptable, now I feel annoyed. I can either pretend to agree to keep the peace and that would make me a people pleaser. Or acting arrogant to prove that I'm above their backward mentality.

“Oh but you say you are depressive. Why don't you just accept that people are different and be sad all day?”

Depressive alone is not sustainable. Being sad is only worth it if I know FOR SURE the person cares for me and fails. Certainly wouldn't waste my sadness on random people at school, especially many of them actually hate me.

Narcissism and borderline are both shortcut ways to see people. But, unlike borderline, I don't believe some of them are good, and the other are evil. I, however, do believe I'm better than both of them, and have the evidence for it.