The tells of who motivated by which, is how realistically they view themselves.
Camouflaging is when they can’t integrate love and hate in themselves. Sounds strange for someone who can. But you spend years explaining to some people and they can repeat what you say and understand logically and still can’t apply, you know how severe it is.
Since they can’t integrate, they feel the need to hide traits that contradict the persona they build. If they build themselves as an empathetic person, they hide all hate. If they build themselves as helpful person, they high selfishness.
“He ♥ he ♥ he” because you didn’t even want to hide your sadism. So seemed like you’re fine with being perceived as a normal person. I didn’t care that much if the opinion was accurate at the time. And to be frank, I was on the opposite direction at first and then lost interest because everyone from all sides annoyed me.
But I don’t think you cared that much about being right. I think it was people being taken advantage of for profit and ideologies.