zelda
Day 39
“You're the best friend i've ever had”
was what the boy had said
words which filled me up
that feel like skateboard wheels
crunching over sidewalk
that smell like sea salt
kites flying haphazardly through
early spring light
“You're the sweetest, kindest man”
was what the bride had said
through moist eyes and smiling lips
flowers draped around the room
dancing close, the world shut out
our hearts beating in terror
at a world that we would build
just starting out
“You're the best dad ever
was what the little girl said
As air changes away from summer
cool wisps of fall
autumn colored hair
back and forth on the swing
hazel eyes paired with smiling lips
laughter and innocence
“You were the world to me, mom”
I said as I heard her voice fade from the phone
The sounds of the machines scream
Footfalls, are the last thing I hear as the line goes dim
a weight blooms over my chest
pushing down on a world
that till now only thought it had
known what it was to be threatened
Thinking back on those phrases that built me
phrases and moments that others planted deep inside
seeds I've nurtured, watered to keep growing
make me smile even as my body turns a little cold
Looking into your eyes, my once small girls
today at last, is my turn
“You're the best daughters a father could ask for
please love and never be ashamed by it”
Lost a pet today and I got to bury it. This was my youngest first time really dealing with something dying she really cared about. It took me back to when I was around her age. To when Id seen my cat dead on the walkway.
I wish it hadn't happened today but the universe can be just as cold as it is kind.
I hug my kids and keep going
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