A digital journal

40-40-20

40% of games you lose by default, and 40% you win by default – 20% of games you make the difference in. I know this is realistic, but I really don’t like the idea of 40% of situations where I am powerless. I was playing with T earlier today, and we had a random smurf support who hard carried and singlehandedly won the game for us. He had a 80% winrate, with 46 games as Baptiste. For him, it’s 40-40-20. I want more of that agency, I want to be good enough to be able to affect more than 20% of those games. I feel pretty bad if I win a game and it didn’t matter if I was there or not. I want to be useful.