A Pseudo Date
Heyo me. Today I had (for lack of a better term) a date. We watched Midsommar -which was fucking WEIRD, walked around for a while, and then got food and drove for a bit. We are are currently still texting, and things seem to have gone pretty well. There’s a decent amount of tea there but I wanted to comment on this from the lens of a cartoon a friend sent me.
This resonated incredibly hard, especially growing up when I wasn’t allowed to have or make friends. I had always told myself a relationship would be the end-all goal for me, as I would then never be alone again, or something like that. I have long since learned that this is flawed, but I’ve reached the point where I now want to pursue a relationship again. It’s not easy, and there’s been a lot of obstacles to it. But one by one I’ve been going through and surmounting them. I’ve been putting in a lot of effort, and I’m happy to start to see the results.
There’s a life I see myself being happy with, and I will work hard to make it mine.