A weird feeling of stagnancy
For the last few days, I feel like I haven’t really felt anything in a weird way. Maybe it’s because I’m not really struggling with anything like I think I’m used to, but because of that, my life has felt very weirdly stagnant. I haven’t had a discord status in a while, which is weird because I find myself always putting things that I want to remember, as little homages to myself. I also can’t really remember the last real thing I’ve written here. I feel a little bit scared at this feeling, as it’s almost like nothing is changing, and I’m used to that being terrifying.
For some reason, I ended up going through a little social media rabbit hole. I was looking at different people from high school, and it was incredibly strange to compare them to the people I knew. I think there are always different metrics I can compare myself to for all of these people, to the point where I can somehow always feel bad about it. I find it hard to not compare myself to someone’s social media life, or their achievements they’ve done.
I guess I’m just a normal person after all, subject to social media bias.
R – 3 breaths
E – I feel like I’m staying still in life in a weird way, and it doesn’t help that I compare myself to other people.
S – Set up some time to interact with online friends, and not just stay relatively isolated the entire day.
T – I’ll message S to see what his plan is for tomorrow.