An incredible amount of anxiety
I’ve kinda been shutdown for the last few days, any waking moment is crippling anxiety and stress to the point where I can barely move my body. I don’t feel like eating or anything like that. I just kinda wanna sit here and rot.
Situation: I am shutting down
Thoughts: This is it
Feelings: Im tired and giving up
Behavior: I give up
Thoughts: This will pass, and it will seem trivial in a bit.
Feelings: Scared, but a bit more hopeful
Behavior: Unironically I thug this shit out
Man, the problem with becoming nocturnal is I have no energy to do this, I feel like I’m disrespecting myself with this half-assed journaling. I hope I get out of here.