Contentment
Today in therapy we went over something fairly important that I decided might as well write about for tonight. I realized a big fundamental issue I struggle with is my feeling of value as a friend. I had all of these puzzle pieces which should logically let me accept that people do value me as a friend, but I was unable to logically accept it. After some more peeling of that thought back, we realized how I do that because if I do believe that it’s true, then that would mean I have expectations and it would hurt more if people break my trust or leave.
I concluded that I wanted to be brave and trust in people, and understand that I could be hurt by this trust and still be willing to do it again. I think that’s a fairly noble pursuit in life.
R – 3 breaths
E – I got offered a TA position that works for me
S – Tomorrow I will followup on emails and get it sorted out
T – I go to bed now. Goodnight!