First night in Tokyo
My phone's a bit low and I'm really tired so I won't write much, but I'm a bit both overwhelmed and underwhelmed at the same time with it all. I know I'm running on not much sleep, and also no Adderall but I just feel scared that I'm not enjoying this as much as I should be.
I keep seeing this life and thinking if I'd be happy in it and I don't think I would, and that scares me that I can't even romanticize it.