Life is not what I want from it yet
and so I’ll do what it takes to change it. I’ve spent so many years of my life unhappy, and I’ve wasted time I will not get back. I thought about it today, and I reminded myself that things won’t change unless I do. It’s so naive to think you have no influence or control over life. It’s also naive to think you can control everything in your life. The most you can do is steer yourself towards the life you want to live.
I talked with a friend yesterday about some stuff, and they mentioned how when faced with any kind of failure they blame themselves. I realized that when I face failure, I feel driven. The several times I’ve tried 225 lbs on bench, I’ve failed. Every time after I’ve found myself smiling, as I want it more, and I can almost taste how sweet the fruit will be.