A digital journal

On Her (2/?)

Everything was perfect until the day it ended. The relationship was only two months (feel free to laugh), but the effects it had on me lasted nearly a year. I remember that I had to go home for two days since I had to get my covid shot and other medical stuff, and she was sad, saying she can’t wait for me to come back. She had baked me banana bread for me and my dad, but when he came he didn’t want any and I thought I was able to leave the bread outside.

I later got a text asking about the bread, and I explained we were in a rush and weren’t hungry; and she got upset that I didn’t freeze it. I then apologized multiple times as I realized it had made her sad and I genuinely didn’t know. She stopped responding to me, and after a bit I messaged her saying how my anxiety was making me think she was avoiding me. Later when she responded, she told me that she was, and that she would rather talk about it in person when I was back.

I let my anxiety take over and I sent her a semi-frantic text asking what happened, and how I was starting to get incredibly worried. She stopped responding for a bit, then replied saying that she had taken everything of hers from my apartment, left her key, and that she didn’t want to interact with me again. I tried to send a message back, but by then I was blocked on everything. I never got closure, or knew what actually happened.