silverdog

Hey, thank you for visiting. I have created this blog in an effort to understand the world around me, how i should relate to it, and hopefully gain some feedback from likeminded individuals. I believe that pressure in the form of actually writing something that others will read (hopefully) will tighten up my posts and actually force me to commit, and think about what i'm typing in a way that journaling for myself doesn't. I guess i want to change my own ways, and to see if writing allows me to discover my values and open my eyes regarding what I should do.

I have some experience with journaling, however not in english, and not for others to see, so my style of writing might be rambly (?). Hopefully i can improve that over time.

If i find this giving and useful, i'll keep doing this. I don't really have a plan going into this, and the things i say might be off-putting. My intentions are not to offend anyone, however i believe that the things i say are true from my frame of reference as of the moment i type them. Whether or not that makes them objectively true is another matter, but the point is to show my thinking and viewpoint honestly to gain feedback that i can build on.

I'm still not sure about how much i am going to share on here, or how “raw” i am going to write. I am also not sure if i am going to simply share insights, ask questions and for advice or just ramble. Like with journaling for myself, i think i just figure it out as i go along. Regardless, an introduction is in order.

I live in Europe, i am a guy in my mid-twenties, single, and as of right now unemployed and live at home. Aside from some work around the property, i have some days now with nothing to do. Instead of wasting the time, i thought about trying something new. And now i'm here.

I have a serious knack for ruminating, and spend just about every idle moment thinking about things. Some people afflicted view it as a curse, as have I, but I am reconciled with that part of me, and have come to view my running mind as a tool of great potential. I think every part and ability of oneself is, or can be transformed into something useful and admirable, given the proper context and understanding of the world around you, yourself, and you in relation to the world around you.

I appreciate articulation, and i guess i have an innate focus on articulated concepts rather than embodied ones. Part of my journey now is actually to try and bridge the gap between embodiment and intellectual concepts in relation to how i should live.

In trying to understand why i act the way i do in certain situations, and what worldly truths triggers universal responses in people, conscious or not, i have become obsessed with the idea of power, and its pull on every aspect of my life. I think i will save an in-depth query for later, but that is where my mind is at right now, trying to flesh out something tangible.

Not sure how to wrap this mess up, but leave a comment if you want to? If i get questions, i will try to answer. Cya!
-silverdog