Writing
In these few posts i've made on this site, i've realised the difficulty of writing. I know that proper writing is hard, but i didn't realise how difficult it would be in this setting. I'm going to try and illuminate these problems, and in doing so, hopefully stake out a clearer path for myself in the times ahead. Maybe the reader gets something out of it as well ;)
First of all, what i intend to write about almost inevitably pivots mid-session. Maybe the topic that brought me to the table to write was more complicated than i thought. Maybe it wasn't. Sometimes it's so simple that it feels stupid and patronising to myself and the reader when i write about it, and that segways well in to my next problem.
How deeply should i go when explaining something? I don't know how detailed you would like my breakdowns. I don't even know how deep i want them myself. Part of the problem is that i am mainly writing about things i've thought through. This is like some advertised guru self-help shit. And i don't know if that's the direction that i want to take this. Yes, it's great putting esoteric ideas into words, but i want to explore ideas too. Outsource and feedback. The problem with writing like this is that it feels like a certainty is required, like a confidence that i'm right with what i write and that it IS the way i say it is. Yes it's fine, but it's boring too. I want to explore, but i am drawn to deep waters i'm not sure i'm comfortable writing about. And that again segways into my third issue.
Where exactly do i want to take this? This might be too soon to ask, but i have to consider my vision with this stuff. The way i've written so far is a bit all over the place. Again i think it's fine, but it would boost my creativity and motivation if i could narrow down on the topics and general spirit of the direction of this blog.
My style is chaotic and rambly(?). I can feel it, but my hands are tied with incompetence for now.
For the foreseeable future i'll probably post as before, about random stuff i think about. I think i still lack a general feeling for this project, so until i get one, i'll just keep going in faith.